Here's an insightful essay about ambivalence by Richard Ford: Tempting times [Guardian] It's about his reaction to the Democrats' defeat.
It's a short piece, so I won't spoil it for you by carving out my favorite chunks. Like a lot of people, Ford is self-consciously vacillating between righteous outrage and self-protective narcissism. It's tough to lose, especially when you can't quite decide what kind of defeat it was. Was it inevitable? Did we botch it? Was it a crushing defeat, or a minor electoral setback? If we're going to be outraged, who should we get mad at?
There's something perverse and demoralizing about being furious at many of the people whose oppression was outraging us in the first place. Ford understands the complex relationship between high minded moral sentiment and tribalism. In this election they seem to have fed off each other in complex ways. In the aftermath, it's a lot for our poor monkey brains to process.